At my university there is a general store which sells food and stationary and such in the building we call 'The Cheesegrater'. At this shop, there's a rather cute guy who is often serving when I go in. This isn't the guy I was discussing in my last post by the way (what does this say about me I wonder?) He complimented my boots yesterday (sensible fellow) and today he remembered me from the day before. Do I just come in too often or is he interested that I'm coming in? I'd like to say it's the second one but I feel that it is so egotistical of me...
I've been thinking about various things recently. When other people like someone, do they feel ready for a relationship with that person? When I like someone, often I can never imagine myself actually having a relationship with them, and because of that I never feel like I'd be 'ready' for a relationship. I've thought for ages that it must be me not being emotionally ready for a relationship or something, but I read something today which suggested that perhaps lots of people feel this way. So I'm asking, if there is actually anyone out there reading this, what do you think? Do you feel that way? Or do you think that if things are really meant to happen between you then you will feel ready when they do?
In other news, my best friend from uni is leaving tomorrow to go to Canada for 6 months. I'm super excited for her, because I was overseas for 6 months last year and I know what an amazing time she's going to have, but I'm also sad because I know I'm going to miss her. I've met some new people at uni this semester who are good fun to hang out with, but it's not the same as this friend who I've known for 4 years now. No matter, 6 months goes pretty fast and I know she's going to have an amazing adventure.
Is there a difference between having a crush and liking someone? Is it possible that whatever I've felt before has only been a crush and now I might actually like someone and that's why I don't feel the same as usual? I've just been thinking again about what I posted yesterday and it just doesn't seem right that I can think about him this often yet not like him. But I don't feel the same 'symptoms' I do as I have when I've 'liked' people before...is it because I don't actually like him (and maybe am just convincing myself that I do) or is it because it's more than a crush and I've never felt like this before? Sometimes I wish I could just ask my friends this, but it seems so embarassing to ask such obvious questions. There's also the issue that some of my friends decided after I first met him that I must 'clearly' be 'in love' with him simply because he was around my age and male and I went to such lengths to convince them that I actually wasn't! I don't particularly want to set myself up for a round of 'I told you so's'...
I have to stop being distracted by this and actually do some studying! Exams will get here sooner than I think and I'm still in holiday mode!
Dare I Restart This?
3 years ago